Master-Awesome 2016-05-12 20:03:16

I MADE THE EXACT IMPROVEMENTS YOU DESCRIBED: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAeFRTGM9ws&list=PLlcCqmE8EN-HpG4TwsIIdfWwUOdV2I3xO

Lately, I haven't released more films right away given I want some time to properly process my new works. I'm just saying that the movie did do pretty okay here and I still have the reviews saved for reminders of the stuff I need to change.

Saved Reviews: http://www.newgrounds.com/dump/item/46f4a1f9b248f32a92252c7be18b9310

I'm just saying that this site doesn't have potential except in the music field.

Master-Awesome 2016-05-12 20:14:02

Okay, cool, they have potential in the art forums and in whoever loves to learn. I guess I really never bothered to check.

NOTE: I still don't respect the admins of the site. Just the people who use them. The people are cool and I even said it in the post.

Master-Awesome 2016-05-12 20:23:10

Yeah, I guess I never bothered to check that either.

Master-Awesome 2016-05-12 20:24:19

Quote "don't respect the admins", never said moderators, now your twisting it. One of my friends are actually moderators here.

Master-Awesome 2016-05-12 20:30:35

I think the time for resolution is over. I had my fun here and now it's time for me to move on. Hope for others to not repeat my mistakes. If the video were to get back up on this site, it wouldn't have the same meaning as it did all those months ago. Thanks for your help. Maybe get back to me in a year or two when I have had time to really think it over.

Master-Awesome 2016-05-12 20:37:44

Cool.

Master-Awesome 2016-06-17 20:32:50

You do have a point about one thing, I have kind of done some more research on this website and come to some understanding that Tom might have just been doing what he believed to be right. I think what bothered me the most was just that he didn't bother to say this in his PM. He sent somebody else to do it for him.

I mean it wouldn't have made things any better, but at least, I could have respect for the fact that he was willing to acknowledge me when he did it like those other times he sent PMs. To be honest though, I was also under a lot of pressure by my emotional abusive parents. They constantly put me down for everything and it hurt the most when it came to doing movie making.

So I think it just felt like a kick in the stomach when after trying so hard, I just wind up failing again to have this movie up on NG. I was so depressed about it given the stress my parents put me through, plus the stress I had with trying to get a team together, plus, the stress of police officers showing up because we used toy guns.

Then, after that, seeing the video be removed. Then, I guess, I just kept it to myself and never bothered to say anything to my friends as I was too embarrassed to say NG let me down again and that they lied.

My friends would have supported me no matter what and to be honest, one of my friends said it to me that it would happen so to kind of admit it even when I know my friend wasn't going to be a dick about it and say he's sorry, it was pride I guess. I am sure that there has been a time when you hope so much for something to happen and it just backfires.

That's life, right? Anyways, things only got worse from there. I wound up telling my parents that NG removed my content out of a moment of weakness and then, they told me that I am a disappointment and that this is a reason for never trying in life. I felt even worse about it and decided that I was too ashamed to admit it to my close friend.

Sooner or later, I admitted it to my close friend and he said, "I am very sorry you weren't able to have it up on NG, but at least it is working out on YouTube. Your parents are dicks for putting you under all this pressure for one website."

He said actually a lot of nice things. Not even once, did he gloat that he told me so. After talking to him, I felt a lot better and wondered why I never talked to him before. I started trying to seek some counselling help for the problem I have been having at home.

Nothing seems to be working though, so now I am being given some help in moving out of this home I live in. It has been a rough year and it all happened because of this movie being removed. Though, I feel maybe, it's really my fault for pushing blames because if it wasn't my movie, I am sure my parents would have used something else against me as that's their nature.

I was just in denial for 17 years that there was just some hope left in them. It kind of sucks I came to the conclusion very late in my life and it has taken me a very long time for me to realize how much of a fool I have really been.

I am over the whole NG removing my movie thing, but I still won't stop spamming on forums posts every time I have a new video up on YouTube as they lost a lot of my respect that time when they lied to me. I like the viewers they attract and you know, I have read that post where Tom admitted his depression of people leaving NG for YouTube.

It was a post he wrote a while back before, I agreed to help and stuff. I think I will just link you to it.

Tom's Post: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1372021

When I read that, I thought Tom would for sure agree to my help, which he did, and follow it through. I never thought for one moment, he'd back out the way he did. Then, sometime later, he did write another forum post like I pressured him into it, but I mean that's what being a business person is all about.

If all people were just there taking the hit, there would be no successful people. The people who truly make it are the ones too stubborn to quit. The ones willing to accept new things. The ones open to change. The ones willing to do the research. The ones willing to change their mindsets a lot.

I feel the reason Tom's website has only maintained a stable income and not to the popularity of YouTube is because Tom plays it safe. He doesn't want to go too far off his comfort zone because he is afraid of the risk backfiring. I, too, am very afraid of taking a risk.

Hell, I am still afraid to leave my home without asking for permission from my parents because it is just too darn scary, but I am trying. Perhaps, I should also give the guy credit that maybe, the people who surround him are always telling him to play it safe so he does so. My entire life, I played it safe and it never got me anywhere except, more insults from my parents.

At least, now I can say that I am able to cook something now, use the TTC bus further than my usual area (I am only allowed a certain boundary outside), and that I have more confident to speak up against other people in person now (not just the people of the freakin Internet).

It might have been a rough year for me, but this year also taught me that, I need to give NG some space to grow in their own way. Perhaps, the way I pushed Tom, it was just not his time to make the move. Perhaps, Tom needed to make some mistakes before he can reach his success.

Whatever it was, I have had a lot of time to really grow as a person. I think this month and 1 week especially, to really understand that even though it was kind of unfair of NG to do their thing on me, perhaps, it was unfair for me to judge.

Perhaps, I too, was at fault. Two wrongs don't make a right. Though, I feel the blog I wrote isn't entirely wrong to leave right there because if there are any other people out there who thought like me in the past, I want this blog to serve as a warning to not repeat what I did.

Because even though NG may change in future, chances are it may also not, and so this blog serves as warning that watch yourself. If you aren't too busy, I suggest watching these series below.

Series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zVicVrq3D0&list=PLNyaKqNHPfyMR_csx8cUgYn5sPWMxrow3

It's starts off as a series just for shits and giggles, but winds up becoming something more as they go more into the political systems and morals of the characters. When you see the ending especially, you begin to understand the stuff life does to you to forge the person you are.

Had I not been stuck at home all these years and were more in the outside world, perhaps, I'd be less judgmental. I feel the most sorry for Ash because his entire life, his dad abandoned him, his mom barely paid attention to him, and all he had was a television screen telling him about the world of pokemon. I mean just the situation he describes could turn anybody into a crazy one-minded person.

Don't want to spoil anymore of the series, but just thought, I'd share that so you could feel a bit of sympathy for Ash as he comes across as a complete idiot at the beginning. This show doesn't focus on pokemons, but rather, the characters and political system. Anyways, that's all.

Feel free to also see my channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKJKZWjAGpbrbTJ4QSJkMoQ

Master-Awesome 2016-06-21 22:56:17 (Updated 2016-06-23 20:26:20)

You should watch this series though: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zVicVrq3D0&list=PLNyaKqNHPfyMR_csx8cUgYn5sPWMxrow3

You don't necessarily have to be a fan of pokemon to understand it. It is just very funny, but makes sense as well. If you want though. These aren't my videos though, but if you'd like.

If You Are Interested In My Videos See These: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKJKZWjAGpbrbTJ4QSJkMoQ

Even though I have learned a lot, there is still much for me to learn. The learning never stops, not now, not never. I have to always be willing to accept changes in society, accept who I am, and update my thinking. I am in a changing world, I can choose to either stay who I am or change with it. I will choose change over being the same any day.